graduation

had a black casual sleeveless dress on, put on a light make-up, tied my hair to a bun, slipped on a pair of black high-heeled pointed pumps. and i was good to go.

i shouldn't have let Neos come to my grad. i couldn't leave them. as a result, i took only few shots with my ust friends.. so sad.. i wish i could go back. just for the sake of memories. lol

towards the end of the last semester, i met some cool new friends from other sections. only, i didn't get to know them really well because it was almost time to separate. it's really sad. cuz i sorta don't like IM at all. although some are okay like the g-group (i wonder what they are really called). but there isn't any memory to treasure or even remember. except with rio and ang. they are the only ones who i get along with very well in chixies. and of course, ice! real cool dude. i mean girl hahaha i hope i could still get in touch with them and still be close as friends. i never thought i'd miss UST.

in the month of march

it's finally over. i'm officially bum.

i went on looking for jobs even the ones i most likely won't get into. just for practice.

guama had been in the ICU for 1 1/2 months i think. the doctor (my aunt) said she has a maximum of 24 hrs to live. that was at 9am and 24 hrs would be on the next day. it turned out barely 3 hrs she finally left us. the hour before she died, mommy said to talk to guama for the last time. it could be like passing on our problems physically and emotionally to her. its a filipino practice they said. but i said something else. i told them i want to be alone with my guama then i laughed just to let them feel its nothing so serious. so i put my lips near her left ear so that i could be certain she heard me although she was unconscious. i told her that God loves her very much. if she wants to rest now, get all she sickness away, just call on to Him and say, "Jesus, save me! Jesus, save me! Jesus, save me!" i have to admit, i was a bit hesitant before saying it. because i knew right then, if i tell her the good news. i would go into tears, which i didn't want my relatives to see. i'm glad in what i did. but half of me isn't sure if she's with Him already. i realize this because the monk said guama was very devoted to buddhism. guama called them all the time to ask for advice and all that. although my cousins said guama was actually praying to the santos (catholic). i'm not sure exactly. anyway, it is still hard to believe she's gone even after the burial. she's the perfect example of an ideal grandma. she's so soft hearted. she cared for every single one of us. male or female. i have never ever ever heard her complain on anything. or even heard it from anyone that she complained. she didn't even want to admit that she's so tired already (in the ICU) because she didn't want anyone of us to worry even though it is so obvious that she's suffering so bad. i could never find another grandma like her. i love her so much.

she passed away on march 18, 2008 11:50am. february 11, 2008 on lunar calendar which is the same date my guakong died but on a non-lunar calendar. after ten years (february 11, 1998). march 19 is my cousin's birthday who is the first grandchild. i had to say guama picked a good date.