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just today, we had our first preliminary examinations.. 2 subjects.. operations research and operations management.. om, i think ill pass.. or, no way.. y? stupidity.. well, not exactly.. its like.. careless stupidity.. not careless careless.. u know what i mean.. anyway, if its careless careless, it would be bearable.. unfortunately, its not.. so now, i feel like shrinking.. humiliation in the family.. thats all it takes to make me feel like a failure..

gloom

i overheard mommy and daddy talking while i was still in bed rather vaguely about taiwan, my shoti, hospital, pal.. then i sorted it out.. and it spelled.. shoti's in the hospital and mommy cancelled her flight to taiwan.. then i woke up, waiting for mom to tell me everything.. but she didnt.. she told me shobe's chemical ingredients cannot be found in allyson.. kakadepress noh.. but she finally told me when i was eating my lunch.. that shes leaving for canada today (shes on her way to the airport now) because shoti's in the hostipal having stomach complications.. she'll stay for 2 weeks and maybe shoti'll come along.. leaving ubc.. i wasnt sure how i felt when she said that he'll be coming home for good.. half of me was really glad, the other half.. i felt disappointment.. shoti wasted 2 years of his life just to end up studying here in the philippines.. he would have been in his 2nd year of college now if he didnt leave.. plus, i felt pity over him.. he'll be leaving his friends, his church, his school.. but i think im still glad he's coming home.. we wont have to miss much.. haha anyway, i just hope he's ok now..

seminars

jan 19-20 - business and economics convention at dlsu
jan 27 - it convention FUSION at dlsu
jan 27-28 - ateneo's itech seminar at makati

prelims - jan 17-20
-->cant go to business and economics convention

first choice = FUSION
-->limited to only 20 students per university

last chance = itech
-->but no.. no ones coming with me.. they didnt like the idea of spending php300 for the seminar.. but i told them its very important to all of us.. especially for im students.. it is actually organized by the mis students at ateneo.. but it seems like what i said werent really heard.. anyway, ill still try to go..

school starts

my bangs is getting longer now.. and its hard to maintain.. and right now.. i feel regret.. for my selfish reasons.. which is to have new look.. and thats stupid.. i know..

dean list.. my goal for this semester.. just take away all my laziness.. then im good to go..

are u annoyed by all the ".."? well thats how im saying these words..

this useless trashbag makes me want to strangle him.. if only i could, i will..

friends.. im not a person magnet.. or even a friend magnet.. im boring, selfish, stupid, corny, immature and anything like these you can think of..

dexter.. my new addiction.. a tv series about a forensic scientist who murders serial killers.. just like him actually..

havnt talked to shoti for a couple of months now.. i kinda miss him.. but im used to it though not talking to and seeing each other..

i have nothing to say.. sorry about this haha

my new year

we open gifts and fire some fireworks every december 31.. its kind of a tradition.. well, i didnt get all i wanted.. but im happy..

right now? im not happy.. school starts tom.. or i mean later..

okay, there is this person.. lets name him.. trashbag.. now this freak was getting against me.. im not sure what his trying to do.. but he makes me wanna spit in his ass face.. crash him like a bug.. kick his ass.. poke his eyes.. along with his friend.. do u think im that stupid that i wont notice it?? huh?? you asshole.. stay away from me!!! stop wasting my time.. its not funny anymore.. u get it?!