what to do now

OJT just started last wednesday and i couldn't really think of a good way to escape this dump. my groupmates are kind of depending on me to do my part. although they just assigned me to do testing. it's a bit insulting, honestly. knowing my capability. although i'm not saying i'm good or anything. but testing?! why did i apply here in the first place if i'm just gonna do testing? anyway, i thought it'll be ok since i'd be on leave for 2-3 days.

PHILNITS is coming close. 5 weeks to go. 10 more books to read. 15 past exams to review. 16 past JITSE exams to study.

my escape

i'm thinking of leaving AWS. i can't stand the thought of being a probi for two years. coz it's like almost impossible for me to pass the PhilNits exam (a requirement to be qualified for regularization). we've been given 3 mock exams which none of those i passed. totemo pityful, i know. i wonder when i'll be kicked out. anyway, i applied at NEC, also a Japanese IT company, just in case, but also with other ulterior motive. LOL. i'll go in detail with this once successful. so. fortunately, i was shortlisted for an interview next two weeks. well, for now, i just hope everything goes well.

last day of the year in AWS

yesterday was our Christmas party. they ordered ambers (again) and the usual KFC. we had shagedy-shapopo games and the revealing of babies (kris kringle). we went bowling + billiards at robinson's place afterwards and ate dinner at ajisen ramen which is quite different from hk, sadly. finally, karaoke at timezone php12 per song. pretty affordable compared to redbox which costs hundreds per head.

when people say you're magaling for countless times. what does it really tell you? coz real magaling people get compliments only once they are known to be magaling. and that's it. they don't get complimented over and over again. so what if you get complimented whenever you get an average score or just simply accomplishing something. you'd feel insulted diba?? coz they expect you most likely cannot do it. it means you're either bobo or tanga. or both.

3 weeks at AWS

this sucks. they recently announced there will be an assessment 2 weeks from now. the training will be stopped once the standards (of a trainee) aren't met. im beginning to think im not fit for this training after all. first, i absolutely hate studying. although i like the idea of studying, doing it makes it rather unbearable. second, i earn peso allowance. lastly, im not, at all, happy. although i think this is a good training ground, to say the least.

after months of planning, pg machos finally got together. nothing has changed. they're still the same, just this time, they were talking about HP.

left out. (1) at AWS, my group of friends are from la salle. (2) in college, my friends were all DLs. (3) now, they're in HP.

one more week before aws

after a long wait since ive applied last july, i finally got accepted. although i was having second thoughts about whether to accept the offer or not. i asked almost everyone in my YM contact list if they were to choose between AWS or PAL, what would it be given the pros and cons. it was a really big help but its sorta 50-50. i even got to talk to my cousin's cousin who had worked there before. he said he would choose PAL over AWS. confused and baffled, i finally chose AWS. sadly, i regret not choosing PAL. but on the bright side, ill be experiencing pressure and stress as i believe i haven't experienced it before.

ok. so after i signed the contract, they already provided me with study materials and assignments to submit on the first day of training. no wonder they said this will be an intensive training that is ironically, more of self-study.

by the way, zsa will be in the training with me!

mimi's despedida

have i become boring? its been a while since ive socialized. i realized i dont joke a lot and no longer being silly compared to when i was in high school. im not comfortable being with neos because i feel intimidated. things have changed so much since we started college. first is the looks. although i wouldnt say thats a problem. second is the habit or way of doing or saying things caused by peers influences. lastly, were not open to many things. such as not saying what mistake or any bad impression we made. so much has been kept to ourselves that made it more difficult to share. i also noticed last night, we are grouped separately. unlike before, we were "shuffled", we were as close as being best friends. anyway, despite this, im still glad ive been part of neos.

so last night, we went to trinoma. whole neos, for the record. its been a year since we were last completed. karen brought a wine and mushed peaches, which we drank after eating at sizzling pepper steak. they were trying to open the cork with a key. lol good thing there was no "corkage" fee. anyway, boobs face was all red after drinking 1/4 of a glass. then we went on strolling into the mall. we finally landed at gerry's grill hoping to get some more drinks. but we eventually left for zsas house to stay for the night. while on the way, i asked them to drop me off here at home because i have a dentist appointment today at 9am. well its past 9 already, and im still here haha

im gonna miss you pimpy!

father's day

here we go again (with the greeting). it was so hard to greet daddy happy father's day, too hard i got scolded by mommy in the car. she even pinched me, it hurt. well, she reminded me a few times and i still didn't greet dad. so that's what i get for being me. haha

i wish NSOV would pick me as their software engineer trainee. only 1 vacancy left and there are over 40 applicants so i wouldn't exactly expect much. although im still hoping. i love japan. i love the food. very authentic. mmm!